I am an addict. I am so tired and exhausted. And I am an addict. I am a fucking dependent addict. How do they formulate those nine narcissist traits? I wonder if I have 8 out of 9 or the whole set of nine. I am angry. I am in this state you could describe as rage. Inferiority complex? Yes. I cannot resist accepting other people feed my self-esteem and my narcissist traits? Yes. Dependence on the important others opinion? Yes. Paranoia of being discussed by others? Yes. Exaggerating of one’s achievements and importance to the point of lying? No. Not YET. At least not that I can remember that. And some additional traits – enclosed circle of close people, deep emotional ties with these people, need of their constant emotional support and confirmation of their love. Those are the main points. Okay, I’ve told I need treatment a year ago. I told that. I knew that. And now others become my drug. I can’t live without it. I’ve always tried to stay away from people as they tend to get annoying or way too magnetic.
Now watching: Everybody's Fool clip by Evanescence. There's nothing better than a good lie... LIE. LIE. LIe. lIE. liE... liE! another one, please
