Something NEW
Reading Freud sometimes feels like lingering:
– “Okay, man, tell me something NEW!!!
My memories’re tinkery –
This holy shit I’ve figured out without you!”
Nobody is unreplacable
What I strongly believe in
Is – nobody is unreplacable:
It might seem mean
But lots are capable
Of being your dearest and nearest
Just open your eyes:
What you have to do is stop fearing
And throw the dice.
Willing to make the difference
There’s one thing I can’t forgive myself –
Being unable to overcome my demons.
My icy heart’s desire won’t melt:
Its intelligent conflict’s too famous.
I must differ from the herd
And I seem to be too weak
I turn to some God-damn nerd
I seem to only think and speak.
Cannot I
This ain’t the fact
I’d recognize,
Uneasy act
To analyze…
May I let me
To set it free?..
May I be weak?..
Forget my wit
And simply cry:
That cannot I!
It’s no revealing,
Nothing new…
This only act
I asked of you…
Whatever dream
Have brought me here
Just now it seems
To disappear.
How to let go?
D’you think it’s easy – to forget? –
Not until you stop regret.
You think it’s easy to forgive? –
How could I if I still believe?..
Is there sense in breaking rules
As long as world’s wrong on the whole?..
Is there a way of letting go
If I’m the one to never show
What is inside, what do I feel
Neither to world, nor to me.
Bloody one
It’s true the only hope that lasts
Is th’one that never gets fulfilled.
Why won’t you name your greed and lust
Motives you’ll never drive achieved?
We’re only beasts whose demons wake
As long as sun is down the break –
We jump of graves, we long for blood.
We cry aloud, we plunge your heart.
We tear and crush, we bring a mess –
The one to break your tender breasts.
We cry for blood, we long for pain –
You aren’t asleep, never again.
